Joy Rushed in

Journal entry 8.8.24

Accept this cup that is offered every second. —Rumi

Yesterday—whew

Saying goodbye to Scott and Braydon was an occasion for lots of tears.

Then my counseling session.

Then to Ambassador where Jim’s blood oxygen was still low.

Then talking with my substitute John about curriculum, and setting some things up for him.

Exhausting. I needed a nap.

But instead I went back to Ambassador. I saw the doc. She saw Jim and ordered some tests.

My stomach began to hurt.

I had not been taking care of myself, or listening to the signals.

Jim said, GO HOME.

I did that. I rested. I got a phone call from someone I really needed to talk to.

That was a turning point.

Suddenly I felt much better.

I watched Kamala and Tim from the Wisconsin rally.

This political season will forever be wrapped up with this crazy summer of heaps of health issues.

I talk about joy a lot here, but lately it felt like something elusive and out of reach.

Yesterday, I decided just to cherish the day.

And then joy rushed in.

Suddenly everything just felt okay. I can’t even explain it.

This quote says it all:

There’s a word I have forgotten.

TRUST.

I can see so much of my angst was relating to not trusting.

So…I understand the assignment.

Try again!